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Something feels different about me today

It’s Saturday morning in Sydney Australia and for the first time in weeks since my contract job finished I have woken up feeling good.

For weeks my mind has replayed every day I had in that job trying to figure out where and when it went wrong and why resulting in panic attacks crippling me and convincing me that the reason I haven’t got another job yet is because of bad feedback.

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But although this could be the case I was still there for five months. So the proof is there too that If I was so bad I wouldn’t have lasted as long as the contract was for.

While for weeks I beat myself up wondering what I did wrong or not enough to stay on or longer than what I had but the truth was it was never going to be for keeps. As much as I loved that job It was never mine..I was basically a library book on loan and returned..

But I think I’m feeling different today and a fog is lifting. Since I started blogging on medium this month I admit I am feeling like I’m waking up with a purpose. It’s a nice feeling which I’m sure we can all appreciate…